oppressed thoughts

Anger is running through my mind,
I can’t stop running through time,
GOD help me unwind,
Sit back and think about what am about to do next,
I never thought I’d be in this predicament,
Look at me i have no friend,
No real love but i seem to fight like i have too much to lose,
Is not a official soldier with a helmet and boots,
I can’t help but grab the gun and let my bullets be the letters to my words of expression,
They never gave me an option to choose,
i won’t allow them to take me down,
They came to my home country,
They came and killed my family,
They looked at me as if i was crazy,
They said leave the baby,
Now i am all grown and they can’t believe i am the back fire of their cruel mercy,
I am also the karma of their unmerciful cruelty,
Look at me filled with anger do you blame me,
How can i continue to survive?
If am living this cursed life,
It’s nothing but pain and strife,
The people of your surroundings filled with propagandas and lies,
Now there are children with their brains blown of across walls it’s no real surprise,

Am scared of the demon inside me,
So i haven’t cried for a long while,
But that doesn’t mean i have even a single reason to smile,
Tell me where to go,
Tell me how to take this weapon in my hands away,
They tell me i should realise at least i am alive,
But they don’t know the pain i carry is much more painful,
So many times i have doubted my reason to live and almost took my own life,
When i opened up my eye’s murder was waiting for me arms open wide,
But i ran for my life i have to get my life together no more idle hood,
They pain keeps getting worse as i leave this kiddulthood,
The grip on the handle gets tighter as i run head first into adulthood,
I see them coming in formations,
I heard of their attacks on nations,
But the devils army won’t touch my mentality,
I won’t even look them in the eye,
I will fight for my soul till i die,
The hate they gave me is now my weapon,
Let’s see how far gone the war is,
Let’s see how long this war will cause pain, tears deaths, hate,
This war is nothing but a disease,