escape rope

More violent than ever,
Blood stained images in my mind,
Three in the morning wake up to the same scream,
Every night run out the door because of the same bad dream.

Look at the world in a new perspective,
I hear the bad news and see the good views,
I can feel my mind slightly moving away,
No matter how much i scream and bang my head the pain,
It still remains,

Why do they keep calling me insane when its them that pushed me this far,
Why do they act like they want to heal me when it’s them who gave me this scar,

Living a life with a dark theme,
So many mistakes to see when i look back,
How can I redeem?
Lied to myself and made myself someone else,
Now i am not what i appear to be.
Now am scarred, and these scars won't fade,
Walk through shadows wearing shades,

Seen so many that gave their souls away for the pleasure,
But my soul is all i have,
I beg to god to keep me away from the pressure,
I even cry when i laugh,

Confused and i don’t know where to turn,
I search but every clue i touch has to burn,
To many times i had the same lessons to learn,
How do i achieve and earn,

Let me go and let me turn around,
Unchain my heart and let me run,
Take your hand of my mouth and let me scream,
Unlock the door and let me feel free,
Burn that map and stop telling me where to go,
Stop telling me what to do and what you know,

I can feel the cold on my skin,
My blood is flowing thin,
I can feel the oxygen running out,
My heads is spinning,
Did i black out?

I hear the phone ringing,
I stare at it whilst laying on the couch lifeless like,
Why didn’t i handle the situation from the beginning?
My mind feels blocked as if it’s closed down with a stone dike

Another knock on the door,
5th one this morning,
I woke up i wish i hadn’t,
Eye’s feel dry yet tears keep coming,
I try to speak but the words just won’t come out,
It’s really pitiable i can’t even shout,

God lead me to an escape,
I turn to the religious path,
I know what i have been missing,
The misery is nothing,
No more cries,
No more lies,
No more piles of emotions frozen in ice,