hoodlems view

I wear a glove On one hand and wrote Alahu Akbar on the other Like a copper hearted cold Killer with a bullet i take on any bluff Give me a chance and I'll shove A nine millimetre in anyone's face My heart is similar to magnesium's cold as it is let my acidic blood run through it and it turns into a roaring blaze In the nights with all the darkness inside of me and around me I disappear and appear as smoke from a purple haze One main reason for my devilish act is hate for love I have been let down to many times never have I blamed god However instead I now love to hate love Let the police search me go ahead what are they going to gain? Nothing I bet. I wondered why my peaceful soul as a youth turned into an angry state of mind but now i know, hate i guess helped me get fed.
Sad?

I know. Sometimes I kick my self
In mornings for being the cause of death for the innocent bystanders who walk in between the bullet and the target, instant death. In the mornings when i stare in the mirror I see anger through my eye's i see red i see that am one bullet away from blood shed
as i speak to myself i say who ever told you your bound to make it to your bed tonight is stupid just know that this world we are in is a dog eat dog world People shooting others without a care out there Youth getting shot with their eyes closed no dignity I might as well walk around with no clothes i wonder if they'll ever ponder Will they ever be aware? Will they see the torment and pain surrounding them I am bleeding love I've had it enough is enough I can almost taste my heart making its way through my narrow part.

Failure after no confidence now am all cut up, hurting i pray every day god
Help me make a positive impact on this planet
Help me find that pearl at the bottom of that dark ocean and have this motive peace
In motion get rid of this greave living for destruction make me king this world is for the taking If you look through my eyes and gaze deep you'll find the pain had the joyful days of my soul to sleep With no words to speak i wish in mind for every time i shed a tear For every year that i overpower a fear That there would be a river that would exists of torment and pain and swallow every enemy and opponent am frustrated words in my mouth but my heart won’t let me express it and now am just drifted to far i feel like a damp star missing its shine i now sleep with a prayer and a tear it feels like all i can do now i sit back and endure the pain i never had a dream come true but i know better because i was raised to trust that its never to late to be what you could have become so now i awaited for god to bless me for a better life is a strange but a painful experience however there could not be a better present As a message to my guardian angles i write a letter saying: i want you close to my heart however as soon as we become one i fear of sometimes being aware of the atmosphere i enter i realize that life isn't promised long so why spend time to do wrong and become hell bound sometimes i feel like picking up a revolver shoot those who do me wrong but before i do anything the consequences tell me to think it over a gun shoved in my face at the age of thirteen and sliced with a knife at the age of 15 life gone downhill from there now all there is for me is to reach the top starting bottom of the hill with a drill right through my head misdemeanor in mind head shaken body breaking life slipping hands sweating eye's watering enemies in fear am ready for murder and offense of further shoot me stab me trick me fool me am always coming back stronger troublesome life

it’s ok i will survive life of torment Pac lived hard and searched for happiness i see it differently i chase the pursuit stop filling my heart with unneeded emotions that's something my heart doest suit i don't believe in heroes because what if your hero falls from grace will you be able to look at your own face with in your heart disgrace the planet is an ouster shaped as a pearl it’s a bold head you can hide in doesn't matter how many people you see in higher class than you funny enough theirs all ways the few below you popping up everywhere without a care crazily in every scene i live a black life am 19 now will i reach 21 most don't they become a victim of the
gun but that's them their living by the gun so its common to die by the gun however what about the victims that walk in-between the target and gun although everyday is a new test and you find new pest against the anger i fight with my last breath with the thought of death

khalil

His poems are deep. His voice is discrete. But his gun makes a killer beat. That gives enemies what they need and seek. In his vocabulary, defeat is not a word from any dictionary. He knows not to fear any form of existence except the all mighty himself. He shows no respect to those with no spine or a bone in their neck. Like a fist blown to a face with rage. He strikes his pen on a page watching the ink flow and let's go of anger locked in his mind which is a pain struck cage. He has been raised to set a target for his younger siblings, children and decedents. Any sickening reaction to an innocent comment he knows to forget revenge because karma lives. He knows to walk alone mentally in this life because in the after life he will be alone. He represents a fist on a flag symbolizing black power and he shows pride to the half moon on the right hand side below the glowing star which symbols Islam.

He has been taught to be brave against death when he was told as a youth that malik moud will be in front of his face from his cradle till the angle pulls him away to his grave. He was given the name Khalil by his father, Ibrahim. Because his father wanted him to grow famous and well known by all his companions however his mother, Jawahir. She had named him Hassan because of the good she has seen in his heart through his eyes. As he grew up after his birth he was lead through some hard times in life. However he knows that every human being is tested on this earth. Iblis the devil attempted to mislead him as he had told god he would do so to every human however khalil cursed him away and was not anymore lead astray but on the Wright path in a good way. He was told that life is not promised long never mind forever so he avoids the wrong on an act which is found clever. He also knows that love has the capability and is most likely to betray you however in his mind that only shows him the capability of hate giving him a sweet kiss. He tries to avoid stress however his pride keeps all his disappointments and failures and betrayals that people had caused him compressed. He ties a knot between love and hate above an empty void which he stands upon. In the fundamentals of his physicality and mentality he knows he's destined for greatness. Even though blood proofs to be thicker then water.

He knows it's about who has been with him through black and blue days. He only accepts his mothers grace because he knows in this place if he gives respect to anyone apart from his mother then he knows to expect a dagger in his neck or back. He found peace and tranquility in words that describes his ability and probability of the worst. He knows not to set his standards of happiness high because a gift can be given as a curse. His mind is somewhat dyslectic in a positive way he sees such as the beauty of the night through out an evening's day. When people approach him either with love and compassion or hate and false deception, what more can he do or say? Khalil always keeps a rear view on life knowing to expect the unexpected if the unseen could be believed.

His religion is based on the search of knowledge and the worship of Allah who has all knowledge. although its hard for khalil sometimes knowing he's on a verge of losing sanity in these words he keeps sane knowing god has mercy and there is no need to complain even though when a gift is given as a curse he will always say alhamdulilah for what he remains to have intact because its a fact things can get always worse he drove himself to be an inspiration on his alter ego so that he can became his own best friend because he knows he can become his own worst enemy. And he appraises those who wish to do him wrong may they live life long and may god forgive for their wrong he speaks. Because he knows there is no need to hate theirs hate left them hung he does not want the same faith. He knows the pain when a heart falls faint and never again becomes the same. He doesn't show much emotion always hides it his pride always fills his heart with motivation in this life of noise and hidden voices.

l.o.v.e

every first letter of each stanza all put together spells love


lady of my dreams, the one who seems, to take my heart every time i least expect it,
every day, no matter where i lay, no matter what i say, its all over my face, its obvious, to be with you is my place,

over my head, moving around crazy in bed, i cant pretend you have me love struck i try to fight it, am stuck in a ditch, however the feeling is rich, you've been running through my mind for so long am surprised you don't have a stitch,

very amazing, this feeling is so complicating, my heart is racing, i cant stop it i constantly keep fantasizing, keep me on my toes all the time thinking, cant help but the write a line here and rhyming, to much of a rush writing, so it comes to a lot of corrections to spellings,

extravagance added with her beauty,contrivance to all my problems, elegant, my dear friend, she's heaven sent, there is a warm glow every time about her presence, the person that has the one element, to my hearts destruction, lets hope she hasn't got the intention to ruin and cause an eruption, a convulsion of love, a confusion to my love and that there is no regret to our relation,


ME AND L.O.V.E., K.I.S.S.I.N.G
COULD IT BE?
COULD IT BE?
COULD IT BE?

i used too

I remember the days i used to stare at your smile,
These days i barely even here your voice it’s been too long to call it a while,
I feel like a lonely wolf howling to the gentle wind and glowing moon,
Every day same story I’ll see you soon,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

From tears to fears i fought them with you before,
Now i can’t even tell you what happened to me anymore,
I remember the colorful clothes you used to wear,
When i talk to you i sense your slowly loosing care,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

The numbness is getting to my emotions,
I might look calm and collected but my mind is causing a never ending commotion,
When we stepped into this relationship you promised devotion,
These days all i get are huffs and puffs and lack of motivation,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

Why are you stringing me along?
You tell me you love me,
It’s staring to run out of time like a slow love song,
Your absence is getting me down,
I try to smile but all i seem to do is frown,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

Sometimes i wonder what you’re doing whilst staring out the window,
I open up the window at times to block the confidence-less voice in my head with the wind flow,
Every time we set a date you reschedule,
You tell me it’s not your fault so you blame it on fate,
But the excuses you make up are so bate,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

I am growing far too impatient,
My heart is running out of love like a lonely soldier stationed,
How did we take this wrong turn?
How did it end up like this?
We’ve been through so many it’s crazy to even think about letting it burn,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

We are slowly loosing reasons to be together,
I call you never pick up,
So i refuse to hear your voice,
It was hard but i finally made a choice,
It’s over,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

I don’t want to read or hear your messages,
I deleted all of your pictures,
My emotions are still running in mixtures,
But my mind is made up,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

My love can only exist if yours does,
Am not convinced you love me,
When i talk about the situation you resist and go crazy,
It’s not working anymore why you still persist,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

I seen your eyes connect with others guys for too many times to ponder with whys,
Am full of fury and i can’t seem to see what has happened to me,
I am sick and tired of this i used to love you so much till you left me blue and realised your love is but a bluff,
There you go i told you so you don’t love me and its weird how you don’t even know,
It’s over leave me please i can’t take it anymore let the pain cease your love is turning into an disease,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

Let go of my face,
You made me a disgrace,
You played with my head got me stuck in a maze,
You had me at hello with amaze,
But now it’s over either you or i leave this place,
Before i used to chase,
Before my heart used to race,
Now i can barely look you in the face,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

Don’t you dare come back I’ve locked the door,
Don’t even look my way you’re not welcome anymore,

I don’t love you anymore but unfortunately i used to,

K.I.JAMA

Khalil.Ibrahim.Jama

i am poetry hearted

My poetry is a compilation of letters from my soul signed with a tear drop,
The stories i write are for my fears to stop,
The words of expression comes so easily,
The flow of my expressions explain the believe in me,

There was a time where i couldn’t understand myself,
Back then i didn’t understand why emotion used to stealth,
I always wondered till today about my future,
I remember when my mind used to question love my heart used to answer while falter,

Emotions so mixed up and cynical,
I told myself change was critical,
Poetry expresses what i can’t say while rhymed,
The times i shed tears times i felt tears god gave me a gift,
Expressions unspoken a gift so kind,

On the road to glory land,
With a pen and paper in my hand,
Knees on the floor digging into the sand,
Heart so soaked up with life experience,
Had been through varieties of situation all laundered now i claim lenience,

Careless paths taken,
A Fearless past forsaken,
A imaginative-less mind put on stake and,
A bet lost now with no joy to spend,
No love no care a lost boy unaware of life’s rent,

Where to go,
Where to stay,
What do i know?
What can i say?

I free my mind and spend time with the clouds,
I see my time and i send my love to my spouse,
Understood finally i smile,
I stacked my insecurities burned them,
I stack my love in a pile,
I finally found that friend,

I’ve given all i could give now i am spend,
On the blink of a loss god opened my eyes and i seen her,
Now i fight to keep the joy i battled with through my past,
Thank you for the poetry, the love and friend you gave me,
The mother care and soul you gave me,
The illumination of hearts around me you have shown my soul.

when am gone

If i would die would you ever cry?
If i would lie could you ever wish me to die?
If i told you that i loved you more than anything in the world would you reply?
If i took a trip and went missing for a while would you get worried sick?
If i got hurt would you freeze and flip,
If a acted rude and blanked you would you still cook me food,
If i told you i was sick of life and gave you the gun would you shoot?
If i lost my family would you grow me a new family tree?
If i asked you to sing me a melody would you set my heart to a symphony?
If i asked you to stick with me would you stick it out till the end like love strengthened glue?

I have emotions buried in the depth of my soul
My heart darkened like coal,
I was lost and i drifted through life,
I ran so far i sifted from life and strived,
I look up to the sky and i wonder why,
I look down and picture myself six feet under when i die,
I fear no man nor creature but my lord,
But the devil keeps playing games while trying to break in my fort,

If i were to fly today would my family care?
Would they see it as riddance?
Would the girl of my dreams still love me?
Would my friends cry?
How would the people view my decease?
Would they’re love for me increase?

Death is part of life as much as it is to strife,
Death cannot come without life,
Nor can life be if death did not come,
Some say its better on the other side,
But how could you know which side you would end up in
Everyone has skeletons in their closets god forgive me for my sins,
I shed tears to those who lost their way after life from here to where the rainbows begins,

Some cry when they’re hero dies,
But mine died hundreds of years back,
His foot prints i still try to follow,
Hope still exists its time to jump out the shadow,
Some things are just meant to let go,
Some things are meant to be held tight like skin on bones,

I wonder how it looks beyond the stars,
I wonder how long it would take for me to heal these emotional scars,
Some face their execution,
Some search for their soul’s replenishment,
Some aim for nothing but worldly accession,
They say “live your life to the fullest”
They say “spend your time wisely”
I say prepare to die each day,
Let go of everything you always wanted to say,
Always been surrounded by lairs and fake promises,
Heartbroken,
Left,
Lonely,
Angry,
Heart filled with dark thoughts,
God save my soul and save my life from these evil humans.
I wonder if i am truly loved or if i am just a necessity to sociology.

last day

Aim At Perfection in Everything Though In Most Things It Is Unattainable,

Live your life fulfilling because it’s a testing fable,

Do that which you can is good and you are able,

Don’t fall astray and loose integrity,

Death is around the corner yet we do not acknowledge,

It’s strange how blind we could be,

Although many things in life we can see,

The oxygen will leave all our bodies forever one day,

If life is full of mistakes, pain, anguish and torture why do we wish to stay?

If we know there is an eternal after life why do we not seek the key to heaven’s gate?

Why do we do wrong and blame it on fate,

When the unexpected happens tears are shed,

And fears are brought to bed,

Here is what should be done instead,

Prayers and forgiveness should be asked of Allah,

Tears and fears converted into experience and knowledge,

For those that passed away deserve our love, prayers and homage,

Everything happens for a reason,

Some are left shocked others bleeding,

It’s heartbreaking to know a loved one is no longer breathing,

To hope and to cope life has no escape rope can a soul escape death?

The answer will always remain,

Nope,

If only the rain could wash away the pain,

Death doesn’t wait a second no matter how loved, old, rich, or how much fame,

Although death is a birth to a new world it shall always be surrounded by pain,

We enter this world crying out loud as a beginning,

The silence of a death is something to be mentally routing,

We never consider death as we wake up we never thank god for our breath we are too busy living in
joy and worldly pleasure the cameras are flashing every one start pouting,

Wrong examples given by the media are for us to be mislead and to follow,

Wake up shake you mind and step out the shadow,

When will it be our time none of us know?

So why don’t we consider our self lucky to spend another day,

Why don’t we use this extra day to sent our devils away,

Ask for forgiveness of our sins,

May Allah open heaven’s gate and let us all in.

Akagi nanashi, Nameless warrior, A battle within

A battle within

The superman that’s born to never win we meet again,Akagi
Who are you and tell me, are you a long lost friend?nanashi
I am nothing like a friend i am your ego and your end,Akagi
You look familiar i am not even going to pretend,nanashi
Let’s just say you can call me something like a twin,Akagi
Your strange familiar attitude angers me,nanashi
Everything about me is you and look at you, you’re not even something to be proud of,Akagi
Who are you? And what do you know of the pain i carry,nanashi
I know you blame everything on yourself, after they walk all over you,Akagi

What can i do to stop this numb feeling?nanashi
For one, you can stop looking in the mirror with disgust,Akagi
But the life i live is like a lie i smile and the joy blows by like a gust,nanashi
But you hurt me when you hurt you’re self is this self harm bullshit a must? Akagi
Who’s there to save the hero when you’re always alone in tears before me?
Before you?
I cry before nothing but a mirror, nanashi
That’s right i am your other,
i am the reflection you see,Akagi
Are you the one i look at with pain,nanashi
I am the one, the one who carries the same pain as you,Akagi
But tell me how you came through,nanashi
I am in your heart and will always be with you,Akagi
But all i do is cry out for help. Will you be my hero?nanashi
Your pathetic heroes need no saviours,Akagi
But i am only human,nanashi
Thus i am only mirror reflection, Akagi

Have i lost my mind, have these tears finally brought me to insanity?nanashi
No matter what reflection you see, me you will find, and insanity?
Well that’s between you and me,Akagi
I’ve been fighting so many years with so many fears and so many tears,
Why have you chosen to speak now?nanashi
You’ve finally pushed me to speak, i seen your state and you were to weak, i told myself i can’t take another week, so i guess i figured i had to come to your sense somehow,Akagi
I try to save the world but it keeps on running from me,nanashi
Then stop chasing the world it’ll only drive you crazy,Akagi

I hear the piano keys play the tranquil symphony,nanashi
But i know you see the pain, blood and wars when you close your eyes, Akagi
I try not to but it’s something that remains to scare me,nanashi
Your heart cracks every time a loved one dies, Akagi
I been to funerals with you and i know your pain, Akagi
Can you tell i hide it? nanashi
You hid it to well even i couldn’t see through those bloodshot eyes, Akagi

They will never call you superman, Akagi
I don’t want them too; it’s in my nature to bring joy cant you understand,nanashi
Then why doesn’t it make you happy inside, Akagi
I am, it reliefs me from stress, nanashi
Is that why you toss and turn, run and hide day and night? Akagi
It’s nothing for me to try to impress i just try to make life less complex, nanashi
If only they did it for you so now what’s next? Akagi

Well she told me her hands laid on my soul, and that’s why i am beautiful,
so what do you think?nanashi

ha-ha-ha Akagi

against thier odds to loose

Again her hearts on her sleeves,
Love is something she pursues and heavily believes in,
She runs and runs never gets a full grip is it something she can achieve to win,

He always had a bad start,
His first love had his heart torn apart,
He walks around with this mentality women are but crooked beings made to leave u scarred,

She hopes and hopes for the right one to come along,
But she chokes and copes but the life she lives seems so wrong,
The distance love is waving at her from seems light years long,

He prays day and night begs god to give him that one,
But when he assumes he found her his soul always gets too far gone,
He fights these tears every night when people asking him what’s wrong?
He replies, nothing,
While trying to remain strong,

She walks the lonely streets at night,
Wondering if maybe one day she might just see that spark of light,
That hope that shine that glimpse of faith god might show her something she could call “mine”,
But patience tests her tells her everyday breath slow count from one to ten it’ll take time,

He wonders is love real?
He ponders about thoughts so surreal,
His heart thunders like a stormy night,
Things don’t seem right,
Why is he so unaware of how he feels?

She wonders is love real?
She ponders about thoughts so surreal,
Her heart thunders like a stormy night,
Things don’t seem right,
Why is she so unaware of how she feels?

Sometimes he sits alone in a room so cold,
He reminisces about things felt heard seen and he was told,
Should he be brave and accept the fact he might not find love,
Or should he chase and hunt down love and be ever so bold,

She’s sat alone in tears,
Her heart is covered with a layer of fears,
All she really wanted was someone to hold,
But i guess it’s not fair all she gets is a heart with a big black hole,

He tries and tries,
She cries and cries,
He cries and cries,
She tries and tries,

But it never works out for him,
Why can’t he be one of those good guys who always win?
He tried to be good but it’s never enough,
He makes deals with his heart meets cupid and it turns out to be nothing but a bluff,

She found him,
He found her,
She didn’t believe love like this could ever occur,
Her didn’t thing he could find love like this in her,
So they doubted their hearts and fell apart,
It’s a shame really if they just one more time trusted their heart,
Guess it was never meant to be,
But believe and believe you will achieve believe me.

Muslim's words in a Zionist world

With a foot stood shook into the sands of lands long forgotten and sent to heaven,
I speak with my tongue so weak but a heart so strong and my lips dried out because of thirst,
I plead for peace and tranquility but i hear whispers in my thoughts to do wrong but i remain in this battle long,

He tries to break my fortress but he will never succeed because this world is nothing but fake fortunes, that can leave u black hearted with blood so blue,
I hope for a great hereafter but, tears are shed while my brothers and sisters are mislead in their laughter,s

It’s not clear why they never fear the one that created them but a test is a test, we await the results till the end of days,

We are lied about in the media and it gives them reasons to be angry at us while mothers from our countries cry and shout,

Our sons die, fathers murdered as our daughters raped and sent to hostels to be kept as young prostitutes,

The devil is at work he kept his word and is now trying to open hell to the world,

I’ve come from a nation once known for its poets but now only savage reside there and their proud to show it,

I am from the UMMAH of Islam the strongest of nation we strive to succeed after life,
They concern their self with their gold, money and gossip their told but mean while our books opened and our heads prostrated in prayer while they shoot and let the finger on the trigger make their brothers killers guess they are what they call their self,

True niggers,

Slaves of the medium life,

They dance with the devil under the moon light and sun we see beyond the skies and aim for paradise they think they reached heaven while they still live in terror of 9/11,

Foolish thoughts and philosophies about Greek mythology and god analogies but their believes are nothing but coincidences and getting paid and receiving fees,

We pray five times a day we beg god please to forgive our sins while we stand on our knees and try to pleas our lord so that we could maybe end up with the prophets peace be upon their souls so what we could live like kings for an eternity,

I guess the difference lays in their diffidence and the devil took advantage to cause carnage so he could control them so forever they shall tarnish we speak out the truth and they scream ban this,

But it’s them that will pay the price, let them think they living the good life with their money, cars, fame and ice, but soon they will melt then regret all the sin they felt burn from head to toe and under their belt,

The world has gone insane these days its an insult to be called an virgin the sins became natural i don’t even know where to begin, to steal is a fashion may god lead us out this dammed whirl wind, rape, drugs and violence the television is but their advertisement,

We shall stand tall they will fall,

We shall run to success, they’ll even fail to crawl,

ALLAHU AKBAR!!

seek knowledge brothers and sisters for the ink of a scholar is worth more than the blood or a martyr

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
I wonder who isn’t with us this time,
On the streets of the dark cities,
The sins still walk,
The killer’s prostitutes and nasty girls come out at dark,

Palestine, Somalia, Afghanistan,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
The pain still continuous,
The people who care still get misused,
Wife’s who love get abused,
Children thrown aside like they are sockets needed to be defused,
Come live as the lonely witness,
Its daunting the way freedom of speech is exchanged for money,
It’s haunting how the bleeding ones are still suffering the strange loss of morality,

Libya, Syria, Egypt,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
The thoughts deeper than an ocean,
I walk with these painful eyes and tearful moments of mental commotion,
They say they rather die by the gun then to accept the western views,
But can you blame them with all the heartless abuse,
Then again violence isn’t the answer,
But maybe it’s a heart throbbing cure,

Yemen, Pakistan, Malaysia,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
I came traveling from far distances,
I fought with so many resistances,
Got caught deported to another country,
God what is this?
Shackled up like my ancestors,
The horn of Africa is where i was born,
It was once beautiful now it’s a black hold violently torn,

Indonesia, Japan, Russia,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
You try to be an example and you get misunderstood and mistaken
Some have absurd views on religion,
Strap a bomb to your waist run into a crowd and let go,
How can you think this is morally right?
Many virgins saved for you for killing innocents?
It can’t get any stupider,
Islam means peace and total submission to one lord,
Some associate Allah with others poor souls lost in the devils ford,
Extremist beware karma’s sword!

Qatar, omen, Kuwait,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
They preach and teach but never practice,
Their like blood leaches and hypocrites,
Lies and mistakes,
They make our views seem wrong,
We try to stand tall and strong,
Yet they presume to open their mouths and let out a false story long gone,
Let the people hear the truth even if i have to put it in a song,

Morocco, turkey, Eritrea,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
Many people are smiling,
Many people are crying,
Face it facts remains love and hate both come hand in hand,
i am sorry to say but the world is gone downhill,
I guess positively speaking the only way is up now,
Its not that hard to change i hope you understand,
Hope still remains clench your fist and scream alahu akbar,
Politics, governments, drugs and crimes are all in the same line,
We sniff it up like cocaine is the solution to all problems,
Sell drugs to mothers and children alike,
How could you sleep knowing you just killed a family tonight?


Ethiopia, Tunisia, Nigeria,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
The next door neighbours show a perfect example of domestic violence,
The children on the streets get in-between the bullet and the target,
The bottled water is blood with a cap on it,
Once upon a time we were kings and queens,
Once upon a time we loved many things and beings,
I decent from a nation of poets,
The drums and the sing along in the night with the torch fire,
The joyful moments that used to lift up our spirits higher.


Sudan, Bosnia, Albania, Saudi Arabia,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
Some fight for their names,
Some run head first on to the battlefield because of shame,
Some avenge and fight for revenge,
But my heart, soul, mind and body fight for Allah,
It doesn’t seem fair that the world can’t show care,
Mankind is at a breaking point,
Fear Allah!!
Ignore the Zionist life styles the masons and illuminati try to take us down,
Smile we are viewed as a truthful threat we don’t need to frown,
Alhamdulillah and inshallah
We shall triumph!!

Arabia, Africa, Europe,

Another year flew by,
Another Ramadan,
Allah is everywhere pain is human doings,
Stop blaming the person next to you,
Look in a mirror your reflection is pointing at you,
It’s a shame,
Life’s played with like a game,
Seen many things capable of driving any man insane,
I carry on the fight with a tear, a fist and a lion’s heart unable for anyone to tame,
They say its business no pleasure,
Kids murdered for being a witness,
Teens commit murder because of peer pressure,
They drove us out of our home,
They told us we are better off alone,
Look in the eyes of a war child what do you see?
Do you see the inheritance of a terrorist?
Or do you see a child crying out to be free,
Imagine staring blank into the barrel of a tank,
What would you do when you’re up against a nation of criminals?
We are the princess that shall die as martyrs,

Inshallah

expected love

Love is painful,
Love is blind,
Love, it can leave you lifeless for a long time,
I’ve been wondering,
Do you love me as i love you or are you just wandering?
Here in these gardens of happiness you seem lost,
And every leaf you touch seems to turn into frost,
Lately you make me weak in the knees but stiff in the neck,
My mind tells me you’re no good but my heart screams for you to come back,
My hands yearn to hold you but my common sense doesn’t want that,
Either you love me or you don’t,
I need to understand where on earth i stand as your man,
It’s a crime against the heart to stand between love and hate,
You have me step on one foot either side,
And either tomorrow or tonight i want to know if i can remain it your life,
It hurts more to be dragged along,
I rather quite while i am ahead before i get a heartbreak that’ll last me a lifelong,

As i sit in this lonely opportunity i wipe my tears and shake my head,
I am done missing you and wanting to hear from you and needing you next to me in bed,
But the love cards been burned and now i think i hate you instead,
I thought my heart was healed from the last heartbreak but i guess you done the impossible,
You've broken to pieces an already broken heart,
I would say we are better off apart,
But i know your name is still tattooed on these sharp pieces of a shattered heart,

I am done with the break downs,
I am done with the constant frowns,
No more sun downs,
I am done with the smile i have painted on my heart like the lonely clown,
I fell in love with you but not the who you are but the one i knew,
Even though it wasn’t really you she never left me blue,
I wish you could walk a thousand in only one shoe,
You might suffer the love fever i suffered too,
I guess am in love with who i wish you were,
But i see that’s not going to happened,

Love is painful when it’s a lie,
I wish i love you but i love the counterfeit you.
I wish i loved you but you let our love die,
Now all there are left are these empty frames,
I can barely see the pictures they seem faded,
These tears keep drowning my pillow,
I should have know from start,
I thought if i gave her my all i would have hers but all i got are these sleepless nights and stormy nights, and clouded skies,

an insomniacs thoughts

I am seeing things,
I hear loud noises echoing but i have no clue where it begins,
I thought i saw the shadow of a wolf,
I must be imagining things,
The howls i heard were probably in my dreams,
But what if all is what it truly seems,

I can’t sleep,
I can hear footsteps slowly creep,
Emotions rushing through my mind i think I’ve fallen to deep,
I can hear the tap as the water seeps,
The room is closing in,
I think the roof is about to collapse,
Or am i letting my imagination run away with me,
Perhaps,

The tree outside my window is waving to me,
The whispers are getting louder,
Paranoia is kicking it my mind is in a twist,
I must be in a dream because there’s blood on my fists
I crack my laptop open,
I surf the web for some answers but i don’t know why am hoping,
This insomnia must come from a trauma i haven’t left behind in my past i guess i am still coping,

I look at the world through the eyes of a superhero,
But since i am a mere human my accomplishments in heroic acts are zero,
I run and run but where to honestly i don’t know,
I am so isolated from humans i feel like a mutant,
When i communicate i agitate because i am a mute to humans i don’t understand

Frankly i am sick of it,
Lately I’ve been too far gone to just quite,
Reality checks are needed to help me breath,
Only my god knows how much my eyes bleed,
The crying in a lonely shadow has dragged me away,
But i couldn’t weather the storm and now i am in a confused mount,
I try to scream but my mouth doesn’t make a sound,
I look and all i see are friends around,
However yet i feel lonely is there something i haven’t found,
Over time pictures fade and people change and become strange,
Insomnia, ironically the wakeup call my sol needed.

after the smiles fade away Share

Confused i stare blank at the steamed up window,
I am too scared to look back it’s too dark i just stepped out a shadow,
I thought i had a little spark to illuminate my way out the constant night fall,
As the lovely couples giggle and laugh, hold hands and look each other in the eyes,
I sit on this table alone the waiters look at me wondering when I’ll go home,
I guess i brought the depressing rainy cloud inside with me,
I wish they know how this numb heart has been bothering me,

Why and how could she leave me?
I thought we had such a strong connection,
I thought i gave her enough attention and affection,
If anything i don’t remember making a mistake,
How could anyone leave someone they claim to love?
It’s been a lie she strung me along,
I wish i didn’t break my guitar,
By now this hurt would have been a song,

I guess I’ll have to settle with this heartfelt poem,
If you love someone out there make sure they know and hold them,
You’ll regret it if it becomes too late to tell them,
My friends say that I’ve become obnoxious,
Love stoned at the same time heartbroken,
They told me to bugger off or forget her,
I guess you know which option i’ve chosen,

I am frozen in a lonely state,

I can’t wait,
They say patience is a virtue,
I waited,
now this?
I now believe me and cupid have an issue,
We need to sit and talk it out,
I had enough of thinking i finally found the one and turns out to be a bluff,
That’s just to cold,
If only i had someone to hold,
I was told love is hard
They say to fall for someone you’re considered bold,
But i guess it’s also something you can’t help but do,
It’s something that can make you smile for an eternity for forever leave you blue,
The devil kept trying to screw with my mind,
Made me think things that were dumb,
If only i could get her back I’d give a thumb,
I can hear my heart when i hear her name hit my ear drum,

She was my Cleopatra,
She called me Caesar become i dominated her Rome,
We laughed and giggled like those happy couples i keep seeing,
Now she remains happy as i sit hear while my heart is bleeding,



Too bad,
Too bad,
So sad,
So sad,
Love, wish it’s something i still had,
Still had,
She left me in conditions so bad,
So bad,
Honestly i can’t even bring myself to lie and say that i am glad,
Because i am far from it,
I wish i could stop crying sulking and just quit,
But i can’t the feelings are too legitimate,
I am sick and done with it,
No more relationships that sink in the middle of an ocean full of tears,
No more emotional scenes in my life i am tired of living this lonely fear,
If only i could look in the mirror and say is that clear!
If do though I’ll picture her,
And my thoughts fly back in a fur,

funny when

They await my demise,
So I move swift and cut all ties,
I can’t take any more of their lies,
I take a step back before my soul dies,
The hell with my pride,
Till death comes I continue the fight,
God it’s getting dark in here,
Please show me the illuminating light,
Pain I felt, Tears I shed,
They didn’t care they just stood there and stared as I bled,
I guess it was destines and written for them and me to have met,
I feel like a dolphin underwater stuck in a net,
No more games no more unknown names,
No more feuds and moods,
I walk alone now,

Every time I put two and two together,
The aftermaths always hits back in my face,
But between us I can feel the large space,
Its like am walking with shoes but no lace,
It’s stuck in my mind,
I am missing something and I can’t help but contemplate every time,
Blackout to thin air,
My imaginations run away with me,
When ever I try to express my self they never seem to see,
They never seem to be able to comprehend,
All they do is give me smiles and tell me it’s ok so I smile back and pretend,
I might smile but tears are shed in private my dear friend,
They always tell you things you want to hear,
I’ve been staring into the skies at night like an insomniac,
Every time I run away I seem to find my self running back,

When ever I shut my self from the world some how my heart gets reopened,
When ever I think I have lost to the temptation I find hope,
Tell me when I freeze and can no longer breath in this city will I cope?
When I tell them to stop and stand back some how they always seem to cross that line,
God will my life be great am I destined for greatness give me a sign,
God thank you for blessing me with this mind so sharp,
Knowing you have my life set out I never carp
But they keep pushing me waiting till that day I snap
The smiles they give me is like a slap,
But till I reach my goal I’ll keep on the movements step by step,
THEY CAN’T TAKE ME DOWN!

found return

I lay in bed hopeless,
Laying here dwelling in misery i can’t take this,
Why can’t i go out there and make myself a loved one,
Here i am shocked at these so called truth speaking lairs,
Am confused i can’t believe anyone every story is bias,

People act like they know,
When you ask them suspiciously they have nothing to show,
Am so fed up with the walking talking and hiding in the dark,
I can’t believe this is me speaking,
I used to have so much faith now my heart is left bleeding,
The devil used me as bate for every one else to follow,
I cry tears every night knowing i showed the young ones a wrong example,
Now i live with hate for myself and everything i touch i leave in a shadow,

Sin after a sin i swear my life has no win,
Am so sad i still think about the great life i once had,
Tell me god why is this written for me will i change,
Will i come back and step out of the dark,
Will my heart once again glow with an inspirational spark?
Will my mind stop dwelling in the past,
Will i stop running through this old abandoned park?

Every morning i wake up and see my young brothers and sister,
GOD! Their suffering,
But look at me i have a life and am still complaining,
I swear at times i can’t even believe i got so lucky to live so far,
Can’t believe am stuck sin city with no war,
I might look healthy but my heart has a deep scar,
One that can only be healed by ALLAH,
So i get on my knees and pray day and night,
I try to fight of the devil entering my heart day and night,
I struggle to stick to my faith because Lucifer tries to whisper to me day and night,

I will no longer weaken myself i have found the answer,
Am a human with a spirit not just a soulless dancer,
So i came to a conclusion,
Life is nothing but a test and it’s full of illusions,
However at times i seem as if the pains duration is longer than a heavenly day,
At times you will be stuck and will have nothing to say,
At time you will be stood under the rain with no umbrella,
Even when you don’t know the answer they will come to you,
Before death knocks on my door i want to built up my good deeds,
So i will struggle in these streets even if my heart still bleeds,
In order to feel no more pain,
So that i will no longer be the likely one to go insane,

Ya Allah let me through the heavenly gates of heaven.

hannah

i wrote this on a night where i could not sleep because i could not stop thinking about my dear hannah, it was the day i realised i loved her :'-(. and this poem is very very old believe O_O.

friends for three years,
only girl to ever bring me tears,
together we have been through black and blue,
so much love, anger, guilt, and fears too,
her kiss so sweet it prevents me from being able to speak,
unable to even let a word leak,
a dream girl i dreamt and i searched,
now i found her my heart pounds for her like a drum beat,
my love, desire, lust and respect,
body so fine when ever she walks past my body stood still my head turns almost breaking my back, spine and neck,
my inspiration for poetry,
such strong connections between me and she,
when ever i hold her i think to my self,
this isn't reality,
i wonder, i think, i imagine a life without ever meeting her,
the vision in my mind is never clear,
one stare in her eyes melts me,
i turn into a statue trying to fight the fire inside discretely,
my pose, stare, tone, touch shows her directly,
i am in love with this beautiful young lady,
everyday i daze away,
to the sky i gaze,
with my mind in the clouds my body feels like its nailed to the ground,
i thank god for this pleasant moment in life he blessed me with,

a dozen red broken hearts

i have a dozen broken hearts,
so i say i was better of without you from the start,
i guess now its easier to depart,
you say i was acting suspicious,
while the whole time you were being scandalous,
i think about it to my self, its humorous,
the pair of us,
with every fight we have you break in tears,
i used to say its ok, we are a couple its healthy to cuss and fuss,
when matters got out of hand we used to handle and discuss,
after the incident from love to hate now it let me to disgust,
i guess you lied and cheated on me,
i was stupid for not seeing the signs and the way you used to look at me,
i thought i was yours and you were mine,
i thought i really loved you,
your smile was my sun shine,
and your eye's were my shining stars,
now left wit these scars,
i hope i can trust again,
i really thought you were my friend,
but all the love and struggle was all pretend,
it was that love that made me loose my head,
when i saw you two i was shocked,
it took away my sleep now i toss and turn in bed,
first instincts were to kill him,
but the pain made it hard for me to even move a limb,
i hope he was worth it you threw away everything,
i guess more fish in the sea right,
lets hope for that falling star in the skies at night.

who ever told you i am not scary lied to you
again i repeat read only if you have a strong mind lol
and yh and your own safety
i felt quit erm.. serial killer'ish when i wrote it O_O


I get these violent images in my head,
Sometimes i can’t even lay silent in my bed,
So i open my window to get a breeze,
And i beg god please set my mind at peace,

Don’t approach me when am in the mood,
I get reckless at times leave people neck less,
I don't get those who desperately try to impress,
Why would you try to stress?
Even when it’s clear mentally you’re a mess,

I get cold sometimes,
This is even when the sun shines,
I try to calm my darkness with these rhymes,
It feels like it wakes me up at times,

In my mind i am a fighter,
In my heart i am a lover,
Physically i am a warrior poser,
Let me show you what i am capable of come closer,

Come at me with your favourite weapon,
I am far from whatever the fuck you reckon,
I am always there first even when i come second,

I will have you choke,
Make it look like murder she wrote,
Throw your corps of the boat,
I can get psychotic with a blade, hook and a yellow rain coat,

I don’t wear a mask,
I want my victims to remember my face,
I don’t want an armature to get the credit for my task,
I’ll safe your blood in a flask,
I’ll have your body and head separately bask,

If you don’t want to witness a bloody scene,
Then don’t attract me to your life or about me you will dream,
I am your worst nightmare,
All i have to do i look you in the eye’s to have you forever scared,
I’ll come to your house with a torch,
Leave a i will kill you message on your porch,

i don't even use the triggers I’ll bash your head in with a sniper,
Am crazy fuck it, look out here i come,
Your time is over now you’re done,
And your body will never be found it'll be gone,
While i cut you up i'll be singing a happy holiday song,

I don't flee the scene of the crime,
I am there in between the crowd,
If the ambulance manages to save you in time,
I'll make sure in the hospital they won’t hear you shout,

I got murder and kill as a mind state,
I’ll use your wife and kids as bate,
I promise you they will vanish for good if you come late,
I don’t want money i want what normal people would never take,
Give me your spine i want to hear it break,
I sick in the head i told you now hide for your life’s sake,

Don’t fuck with me,
You will lose mentally,
You will be damaged severely physically,
You will never again be seen and will disappear socially,

I’ll drive you over while blasting some Eminem tracks,
Brain contemplating shall i reverse and leave your face printed with tracks,
Take your money stacks,
I’ll chase you i love sweat and fear,
COME HERE!!
I will grab your jaw and tear,

I heard you scream my name,
I know am insane,
And i know life isn’t perfect like a family photo in a wooden frame,
But one thing is sure you will not remain if you fuck with me i don’t entertain,

veni vidi vici

I came i saw i conquered,
The devils own quote,
But i turn my head from it and i try to understand what god said and wrote,
I don't need a Hollywood dream,
I see them fools looking at their idols posters almost looking like their worshiping,
Famous singers, rappers and actors,

The media produce the problem child,
They fill the kid with sex, violent movies and subliminal messages to turn them wild,
Now they got them under mind control,
It’s like they reading ancient rules out of a lost scroll,
History has a mistake of repeating itself,
The unbeliever believes have been taken off the shelf,

They keep us at our own troughs,
They have us thinking their ideas are our own thoughts,
Did u forget the devil is the one to be fought?
I can’t believe these lies are bought,

Don’t be Ignoramus,
You won’t get everything your soul desires,
Even if you’re young, rich and famous,
These frightening people who promise you these life’s are satanic liars,
We are here to spill the truth and they try to tame us,
By spreading rumours and propagandas to attract attention of higher buyers,

Let’s have them understand our righteous dispute
Don’t listen to their deceiving messages and become fools
Have you not realised they want you to live the life of a mute
They fill the ghettos with drugs, blood money and killing tools
The sound of blood and screams, nightmares sound to them like a lovely flute

Don’t be the one that’s under a spell when the horn sounds,
I see those with their fingers on triggers waiting for their fingers to fold,
They don’t think twice about dropping a dead body cold,
They are the once who grew up listening to what the government subliminally told,
It’s not hard to tell their souls have been sold,
If only they had the holy book to hold,
Then maybe they could understand their sins will have you mould,

They make you think that you’re really aware,
But if you really were you would never walk around like you don’t care,
If only you knew an inch of what is out there,
But there is so much a human can take it would be too much for you to bear,
The signs have been shown wake up and see how clear,

Stop staring out the window watching the world walk you by,
Stop the tears and sad moments one day everyone will die,
And only Allah can answer your why,


Turn around and look at the worlds other face
It’s near an end,
Nowhere is a safe place,
There is even no need to pretend,
Let’s turn from hell’s blaze,
And run to heavens grace.

but i love you

As the keys sound the piano,
And the strings play the guitar,
I sit and wonder where you are,

I look out the window every moment,
I wish you stood in front of me and shared the view,
I wish i could set back time but i know no one can own it,
But it’s my soul that gets punctured every second am not with you,

Let me hold your hand once again,
This time please don't let go and tell me i just want you as friend,
Am sick and tired of hiding my emotions it’s causing commotion in my mind,
I don't longer want to live a life where i need to pretend,
I will never be able to be with another you no matter whom i find,

When i cal you please pick up,
When i shout your name please turn around,
When i spread my arms please run into me and hold tight,
Because i would love you from morning till we make love under the bright moon light,

Every time i look out to the distance i see you walking,
Every time i walk through a crowd i hear you talking,
Every time my body walks past your old door my heart and mind are fighting,

It’s been a long, long, long, couple of month now,
And i still don’t know how,
I still feel too, too, too low,
I still want to know,
Every time i hear your name my face and ears still glow, glow, glow,
Listen to me scream your name with my knee’s digging in this snow, snow, snow,

I sing the blues,
I run out my house forgetting my shoes,
For some reason i look for something about you every time i heard, read or watch the news,
It’s like life is a riddle and i need you because your full of clue's,

I can live better than this,
I know i can,
But i can’t live on without you knowing this

I love you,
But i love you,
You are my love,
And i need you,
I miss you.

letter i wrote to the girl i love

My dear beauty queen.
My dear other half.
My beautiful Hannah.
Hannah
I don’t know where to start, you stole my heart. Now with every day that goes by, with every time i think of you my feelings grow like a rose from concrete. I know a love letter could seem a bit corny but there are things sometimes you just can’t say and get of your chest by just speaking it. If i had a chance to erase everything on my mind and i knew i was going to meet you again but in another country and another time i would love to fall in love with you again, much older and experience and knowing, understanding these emotions that i have never been through and still am going through. The language i fall in love with you in would even be different.
From the moment i wake up to the moment i am going to sleep i wish i could see into your eyes and see if i could know that you feel the same crazy love that am feeling. You have what no money can buy and that is the beauty and personality of the dream girl i used to see when i close my eyes as i would arise in the morning sun shine i have the goofiest smile on my face because i know your mine and am yours. A smile so adorable, eyes were her soul is seen vividly, cute figure, cute lips and an amazing friend. I just sometimes can’t believe you gave me the chance and god gave me this present. Just when i was about to give up on love i found true love i guess god really does work in mysterious ways. If only i could know if am to spend a lifelong love with you.

From friendship to a relationship maybe marriage or an eternal love only god knows but one thing i know is that no matter what, am holding tight to every moment we have and every time we share a laugh and never looking back in the past i now only see a future with me and you. If god blessed me with a voice these heartfelt words would be a love song to your dedication and to our affection am glad i was your selection. Through black and blue when have been, and will go through thick and thin, so many problems might come however yet so many solutions there will follow. If there weren’t any difference of opinions, disputes and angry moments we wouldn’t have been a healthy couple sometimes perfection doesn’t mean there is nothing wrong it means we see beyond the imperfections. They say laughter is a key to the heart i try so hard to make you laugh, but the funny thing is as soon as i step in my room i laugh my head of just with the thought of you being in my life. Sometimes when i feel pain and i hear your voice i feel nothing but love and desire towards you. In my mind is have four thousand roses and a card that says i can’t wait to see you later and hear from you, in my head i can imagine us slow dancing in the middle of a forest with snow surrounding us with music being played by the angels and a love that almost seems magical.

If i could i would give you the world. And you’re everything a man like me could want and need a companion who understands him and makes him feel like a royal prince without trying. I wish i could make you the happiest woman alive maybe due i time. However right now these are the days my teeth shine with all the smiles i smile because i know your mine and i could show you how i love you for a very long time. I love you so much i love you from head to toe from ear to ear from fore head to chin from hand to hand i love everything about you have so many qualities it seems you have been made to fill my heart with happiness, love and joyful tears thank god for your existence i don’t know if I’d ever be a better man without you.
It doesn’t matter how many times i can write to you how many times i express what am feeling towards you i always have the doubt that am rushing and pushing you away however if it wasn’t meant to be god knows how long it would take me to get over you may god forbid but if i were to lose you in any way. I swear it you, i would never breath the same way again never forgetting what we shared my love for you grows roots within my hearts vessels this love is mentally and physically changing me for the better and this is a tower of a love no explosion can take down. This letter is a explanation of only a quarter of the love i have for you if only somehow you could read my heart i think you would be in tears, because i barely remain stable and balanced in mind and heart when your near me. Hope this letter shows you how i feel and how much i really love you. Yours sincerely Hassan, your khalil

frozen in a lonely state (new, not on facebook)

Confused i stare blank at the steamed up window,
I am too scared to look back it’s too dark i just stepped out a shadow,
I thought i had a little spark to illuminate my way out the constant night fall,
As the lovely couples giggle and laugh, hold hands and look each other in the eyes,
I sit on this table alone the waiters look at me wondering when I’ll go home,
I guess i brought the depressing rainy cloud inside with me,
I wish they know how this numb heart has been bothering me,

Why and how could she leave me?
I thought we had such a strong connection,
I thought i gave her enough attention and affection,
If anything i don’t remember making a mistake,
How could anyone leave someone they claim to love?
It’s been a lie she strung me along,
I wish i didn’t break my guitar,
By now this hurt would have been a song,

I guess I’ll have to settle with this heartfelt poem,
If you love someone out there make sure they know and hold them,
You’ll regret it if it becomes too late to tell them,
My friends say that I’ve become obnoxious,
Love stoned at the same time heartbroken,
They told me to bugger off or forget her,
I guess you know which option i’ve chosen,

I am frozen in a lonely state,

I can’t wait,
They say patience is a virtue,
I waited,
now this?
I now believe me and cupid have an issue,
We need to sit and talk it out,
I had enough of thinking i finally found the one and turns out to be a bluff,
That’s just to cold,
If only i had someone to hold,
I was told love is hard
They say to fall for someone you’re considered bold,
But i guess it’s also something you can’t help but do,
It’s something that can make you smile for an eternity for forever leave you blue,
The devil kept trying to screw with my mind,
Made me think things that were dumb,
If only i could get her back I’d give a thumb,
I can hear my heart when i hear her name hit my ear drum,

She was my Cleopatra,
She called me Caesar become i dominated her Rome,
We laughed and giggled like those happy couples i keep seeing,
Now she remains happy as i sit hear while my heart is bleeding,



Too bad,
Too bad,
So sad,
So sad,
Love, wish it’s something i still had,
Still had,
She left me in conditions so bad,
So bad,
Honestly i can’t even bring myself to lie and say that i am glad,
Because i am far from it,
I wish i could stop crying sulking and just quit,
But i can’t the feelings are too legitimate,
I am sick and done with it,
No more relationships that sink in the middle of a ocean full of tears,
No more emotional scenes in my life i am tired of living this lonely fear,
If only i could look in the mirror and say is that clear!
If do though I’ll picture her,
And my might flies back in a fur,

As I push the deep heavy emotion into my pen,
They say the blacker the skin the deeper the roots,
But my skin tells stories about how my feet wore out my boots,
The sheet of paper I write on gets covers by ink and tears,
I spill out my problems, I speak my mind, and I express my heart and explain why they are my fears,
I look at a blank sheet and when I think positive writing,
The hand moves and forms sad emotions and I can’t stop my pen from crying,

As my creative spirit awakes,
I tell stories about life and heartbreaks,
I explain ghetto mentalities,
The hand connected straight to my heart,
The lines I write speak of the moments I stood tall and the times I fell apart,
I am human and I make mistakes,
The ink runs through my veins,
The blood drops straight and mixes with the ink and it leaks my pains,

Why do they hate me so much?
Why do they try to out stage me so much?
Why do they look at me like they want to cage me so much?
All I want to do is write my life and stay out of trouble,
But all they want to do is make sure I struggle,
I don’t complain I never do because I know the more problems I over come,
The more of a man I become,

They look at me like am some wild beast the greet me with no respect,
But I don’t pay attention to them because I rather concentrate on living my life correct,
And when am in a ditch I don’t stay silent and call life a bitch I stand up move on,
Happy moments I never forget same mistakes I never do the accomplishment always have me recollect,
I pray to god to lead me on the right path and keep that away from me which is wrong,
I hear my name in the grape vine and the Chinese whispers,
I see them take money they don’t deserve and earn,
But once they realise your living a good life they can’t help but have your ears burn,

They see me as a common threat,
As I love they hate,
When I appreciate they call it fake,
But they don’t realise I really have no reason to hate,
They crawl around you claim friendship but you can see in their eyes their snakes,
When you make a mistake or your love lost their never there when your heartbreaks,

I’ll be honest at time they get to me,
When they talk and talk to a point where it’s just too excessively,
It drives me nuts and I feel like stabbing them all showing no mercy,
I grew up in a place where death occurs like it’s a daily routine,
Where am from we have many who see weed and cocaine as a cuisine,
So I swore I was going to make it out some how some way ever since I was thirteen,
And now I fight everyday to achieve my aim,
My dream.

Aisha

she grew up on dusty grounds,
she grew up waking every morning to gun sound,
she grew up in misery so she held tight to the joys she sometimes found,

she always stuck to her morals and religion,
she tried not depending on anyone but her soul cried for affection,
the war grew louder and bloodier,

she couldn't handle the young bodies buried behind schools,
she hated walking out her house because of those raping fools,
she wondered why they talk about peace if they find it so hard to put down the main tool,

Aisha was a poor girl in a poor dangerous world,
Aisha lost her parents at the age of thirteen,
Aisha now had her baby brother and one sister to take care of,
time to postpone her dream,



she found a pocket knife on her way home,
she kept it in case one day no one would be there and she got attacked on her own,
the suffering changed the look in her eye's now she's angrily grown,

one morning she woke up with her younger sister coughing blood,
her heart stopped of shock and worry,
four weeks later she had another loved one to bury,

so much pain she was hoping for death,
the tear drops out her of little brothers eyes woke up an instinct,
she was determined to survive she would do anything for her little brother even if it took her breath,

praying to god she could leave this cursed land,
prayed she quenched her thirst and could finally understand,
but she knows god hasn't turned his back on her,
so she strives with the hope to cope and to stay away from that suicide rope,

there is an Aisha in every country out there with the struggle,
there is a bit of Aisha in all of us born into trouble,
lets stand tall and face our responsibilities, believe in God,
lets not just stand there do nothing and tremble

chains of violent events

They were best friends Jamal and Omar,
Life’s taken in chains of violent events,
They seen the pain but never thought twice,
All they wanted to know about where the good life and cash,
Thinking of a better life then this 9 to 5,
Some make the mistake and take the risk,
One got caught dead dealing with the keys
One got a bullet in the chest with his own firearm,
They both fell for the devils charm,
Money,

His name was Hassan,
He witnessed his best friend’s murder,
He was a good lad mixed with the wrong crowd now the funeral is for Jonathan,
He couldn’t take the pain anymore and the struggle couldn’t carry on any further,
After a couple of years his tears ran out and couldn’t drop anymore,
He witnessed many friends go down the same road he’s trying to run back from,
He doesn’t want to get a life sentence for something dumb,
He knows it’s a matter of time till it’s his time if he’d carry on he’d be done,
Murder,

They called her Stacy he was Kadar,
She loved him but all he saw was a link,
When he told her to come over she would never think,
She came over saw his friend’s line up,
She asked what this is,
All he replied with was baby you going to sort out right,
So looked in his eye’s what ever love she had for him and her self blew away with the wind,
When they attacked her nobody heard the screams,
Now she sitting fully clothed under a shower feeling dirty deflowered by animalistic rapist,
One being the man she though was the one and she loved and she still couldn’t understand this,
She made the mistake,
She misunderstood the difference between love and sex,

The name was Khalid,
Been through a violent domestic life,
Drunken father always chewing substances,
Some where down the line he was introduced to killers and cold people,
He was only a kid moving from town to town to hold his city down,
If the beef was on they dialled and he would grab the gun,
Pull the trigger,
Now he lectures the youth,
Tells them never mind what you been told living this life is like your soul being sold,
Grab a hold on to your holy book sit down this ghetto life has a hook,
It will pull you down before you know it you’ll be in a stance stood shook with a gobsmacked look,
Things happen ina di ghetto predicted shootings, kills and life changing moments and scars that never heal,

Sixteen of age trying to have a life change,
He was filled with rage,
He used to hear his father make his mother cry,
He woke up one morning saw the black eye,
He asked his mum why she lets him do this,
Why!
She tells him it’s for your younger brothers and sister,
Out of frustration he screams they don’t give a fuck,
All I am waiting for is the day he lays a hand on me the day he pushes his luck,
Coincidently that afternoon he came home,
It was only him and dad alone,
Like always father drunk chewing,
Posture on the couch he was slewing,
Rashid was filled with hatred he still can’t believe this is his father,
He walks past the television screen dad screams,
But with one swing Rashid took his fathers life,
Crack to the skull with one punch,
Sentenced to jail for murder,
If only his mother left his father,

i can't no more

God knows i am smiling,
Because of all the hurt am hiding,
They all seem to look at me like am an animal because of my difference,
Why do they try dying hard to take away my confidence?
So many times they try to fill my heart with diffidence,
I don’t even know why i seem to reply politely,
If i told them to back off or I’ll be your down fall would that even be of significance,
Their hurting me and they can’t seem to see,
Although my backs up against the ropes i stay positive,

Let’s fight,
Let’s stand up tonight,
Let’s stand bright,
Let’s keep our believe right,
Let’s keep our faith at an all time height,

I beg hard my knees as they bleed and remain scarred i seek again those happy sun shines,
However every time i walk out my door i get first sight to gun crimes
So i stay home and drop my tears while i write these rhymes
It seems no matter what the boundaries they all way cross the wrong lines,
Now am stuck and every day its like am living hazardous,
I can’t take it anymore this blood thirsty devilish anger is to contagious
It seems supernatural hate that’s got everyone thinking murder is average
They kidnap children rape them leave their dead bodies in forests,
Oh my god this world is getting to dangerous,
We’ve been shown the wrong messages,
By the government and by the lairs and by the media it has our ideas and souls damage,

Let’s fight,
Let’s stand up tonight,
Let’s stand bright,
Let’s keep our believe right,
Let’s keep our faith at an all time height,

The evil government is giving us no choice but to adopt their indoctrination,
Well i for one is sick of it and i know there are more than me that agree within this nation,
They look at you as fools, who go to their schools that get educated in their deceptions,
Heaven may god let me pass through your gates the pain on this earth can be only swallowed to a degree
They’ve been fighting in a war for peace but their leaders have nothing in their mind but decree,
Someone scream out with me i can’t seem to grab the attention of humanity show me if you agree,
They tell you you’re living in a nation that’s free but from what i witnessed it’s not at all free
They won’t let me be want i want to be so time past and now i will be what i always as i child looked to be which was free so i will fight for them to let me be,

Let’s fight,
Let’s stand up tonight,
Let’s stand bright,
Let’s keep our believe right,
Let’s keep our faith at an all time height,

Look at how they have us look at us as if we have no choice but to sit here and be Incompetent,
I promise you if you fight for your freedom the devil won’t be able to lead you away from what’s potent,
You can be you own worst enemy its known i know but at least try to be your own best friend,
If you can’t seem to have confidence in yourself and store trust with in your heart how can you even act whole let’s not even pretend,
Anyone out there been thrown on the street curb stand up and give me a hand to lend,
Lets fight and put the pain and struggle within our self’s to an end,
Let’s stop acting like pain is something we can’t afford,
How can we presume to cry in front of the television and watch our brothers and sisters blood being poured?
Bullet through the head?
A seven year old?
Why the fuck has he been floored?

Let’s fight,
Let’s stand up tonight,
Let’s stand bright,
Let’s keep our believe right,
Let’s keep our faith at an all time height,

I came prepared,
I fear no man i came here am not scared,
It seems like the good it people heart has given up and is at its defeat,
But i beg you not to give up and retreat,
As we live our life its bound to get colder,
This happened because of the pressure building up as you grow older,
Stop complaining about your pressured job, cheating spouse and finance,
I bet you didn’t know about when Abeni got married,
I will always be there for you i will always love you he told her,
A soon as they landed in Africa of to the black market he sold her,
Life can be worse stop complaining like you’re in a dark downhill pit,

Let’s fight,
Let’s stand up tonight,
Let’s stand bright,
Let’s keep our believe right,
Let’s keep our faith at an all time height,